The Existential Price of Sleep:

For years, Jan Gloomy wrestled with a profound and life-threatening condition: chronic sleep deprivation. This struggle defined a dark chapter of his life, leading to hallucinations, hospitalizations, and extreme anxiety.

Yet, the ultimate solution to this torment did not come from medicine or traditional therapy; it came from an intense act of existential defiance and surrender, which he dubbed the “sleep experiment.” This breakthrough is a cornerstone of the 2.0 Philosophy—a testament to turning profound darkness into a catalyst for growth.

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The Descent into the Abyss

From November 2016 through January 2023, Gloomy’s life was characterized by a severe lack of rest, during which he sometimes slept an average of only two hours a day. At one point, he went eight days without sleeping.

This extreme deprivation created a perilous reality:

• Physical Collapse: The lack of sleep led to hallucinations, such as walls undulating like breathing entities, and periods of memory loss.

• Medical Crises: Sleeplessness inevitably led to life-threatening situations and forced psychiatric hospitalizations for two six-month periods.

• The Fear of Choking: Gloomy’s history with epileptic seizures—which often feature the sensation of choking—intensified his fear of falling asleep, despite the lungs sometimes switching to “Autopilot Lungs” to gasp for air.

The Radical Act of Surrender

The crucial turning point came when an inner voice urged Gloomy to “Turn everything around!”. In a moment of ultimate confrontation with his fear, he decided to completely yield control:

1. Deactivating Security: He took the radical step of turning off all security measures he had put in place, including alarms and booby traps.

2. Opening the Gates: He physically opened all access points, including the front door, the garage door, and the inner door to his sleeping area.

3. Existential Acceptance: He fully surrendered to the possibility of death, thinking: “Fuck it, dead is dead!”.

This paradoxical act of embracing potential demise broke the internal pattern of fear. The consequence of this radical surrender was a deep, uninterrupted sleep of 15 hours.

Trauma Reframed: Ascension and Coherence

In the context of the 2.0 Philosophy, Gloomy reinterprets this severe struggle not as simple mental illness, but as a spiritual process necessary for enlightenment:

• Ascetic Discipline: The extreme sleep deprivation and psychic collapse are viewed as an “ascetic discipline”. This crucible is necessary to “remove the veils to reveal the soul’s luminosity” and shed illusions of control.

• The Shift to ZEN: This intense trauma processing, alongside external catalysts (like watching The Secret in 2018), initiated a transition from “extreme anxiety to 100% ZEN” and harmony in just two seconds, a process that accelerated daily.

• Energetic Sovereignty: Long-term restful stability is maintained by achieving Energetic Coherence. This means integrating the shadow self and achieving “command over reaction” (non-reaction)—the ability to feel intense emotions without leaking energy or becoming available for the struggle.

Gloomy’s story teaches that sometimes, the only way to escape the shadow is to walk directly into the fire, allowing chaos to act as a catalyst for growth. The war on anxiety and insomnia “doesn’t end when you win, but when you’re no longer available for battle”.